yeah its that time of the year again

haha Christmas is here again

times of thanksgiving and gift giving

gift

yeah got lots of things i want

camera, ps3, a new laptop

but wat i really want is a goal in life

for some reason all my free time suddenly feel like a burden

maybe it because of what have happen

i been using some of my free time to do some thinking

and found out that i taking things for granted

and expect my walk in life to be a smooth sailing one

i guess the reason for this is because of the setbacks i face

it seems that the setbacks i face in my life somehow or another

people are there to help me

To start off i guess the earliest setbacks i face will be in my primary sch

it was in my last year in pri sch

as u know it is the psle period a important year for all student

in my pri 6 year i was only strong in my math and science

weak in my language Chinese and English

i could get A's for my math and science

but C and D for my language

but all thanks to my mum who coach me day and night

that i manage to gets 3 A's and a B

then follow by my secondary sch years

i wasn't the brightest in my class by somehow i manage to hang in there

so came sec 2 i manage to scrape through and get in to a double science class

it consider quite good all was well in the beginning

until the end of year exams

well i was quite lazy so i insist that i do not want a tuition teacher

and my result say for themselves

i failed my English by 2 to 5 marks and a couple of subject

and in that year my principal decided that those who

fail their language have to retain

and i was one of them thank God i was given another chance

my teacher said the sch will be giving a retest in 1 month time

so in the mean time i need to study and revise and summit

what i have done back to sch

my mum was there to help me again she push me to study hard

and yes i got pass

and come my sec 4 year

things wasn't that well since i have lots of catching up to do

my mum got me a tuition teacher

result improve but wasn't that good

guess i wasn't hardworking enough

got only 4 passes out of the 8 subject i took

then came poly

the course that i enter was my 5th choice

wasn't that interested

but being lazy and can't be bothered to appeal to change course

i went on the first two sem was quite smooth sailing

cause some of the topic taught i learn it in sec sch before

like the maths, it was just a add on to A'math

things got harder in my second year

and i got lazier

my result drop

in the first sem of my second year

my result was so bad that i was ask to retake the whole sem

well it seem it is a wake up call for me

i work hard and dada yes i past

got to the next year but bad habit are hard to kick

the lazy came in again

took things for granted again

fail my exam again

and this time it was so bad that i was dismiss from sch

so ya now i am sch less

yo blog time lols

kk yesterday was the day caleb went back to hong kong

still remember the farewell party we had for him 2

years ago time really fly in a blink of a eye 2 years

has past he came back for about 6 weeks but somehow

it seems shorter than that. the next time i can see him

is about another 2 years later ba, talk about time fly

still remember it was about 3 or 4 years ago when i was

giving out teachers day cards and stuff but today i

receive two present was happy and excited u could say

was very touch kind of dint expect that cause i start

helping out in southview 6 month ago i meet them once

or twice a week each time for about 1 hour and about

1 sat a month bring them out for partys which teachs

values each party a different theme got close to them

know them was exciting, cause looking at them i couldn't

help thinking of myself i was like them super hyper

cause problem for teacher couldn't sit still need teacher

to shout before can listen

Was and am very happy that i can help in southview

pray for me to God that i can still help in southview next year

yosh hello there very long never come up date le nearly half a year ba

kind of brain dead right now just finish my exam tired tired

now holiday has come sian looking for job if got any please intro

haha ok thats all for now

argh got a very strange dream last night

cant really remember much

but in the dream i saw myself going back to my primary sch

as a STUDENT!!

and i was attending lesson in sch wierd

Being in love with someone who is not in love with you,
you understand my predicament. Being in love with you,
who are not in love with me, you understand my dilemma.
Being in love with your being in love with me,
which you are not, you understand the difficulty.
Being in love with your being, you can well imagine how hard it is.
Being in love with your being you, no matter you are not
being being in love with me. You can appreciate
and pity being in love with you. Being love with someone
who is not in love, you know all about being in love
when being in love is being in love with someone
who is not in love being with love you, which is being in love
which you know only too well, Love, being in love with being in love

yosh just came back from another camp

my church children camp tired tired

was in charge of the logistics lots of things to do

thank God everything went smoothly not much hiccups

write till now going to slp le

will post some photo next time