for some reason all my free time suddenly feel like a burden

maybe it because of what have happen

i been using some of my free time to do some thinking

and found out that i taking things for granted

and expect my walk in life to be a smooth sailing one

i guess the reason for this is because of the setbacks i face

it seems that the setbacks i face in my life somehow or another

people are there to help me

To start off i guess the earliest setbacks i face will be in my primary sch

it was in my last year in pri sch

as u know it is the psle period a important year for all student

in my pri 6 year i was only strong in my math and science

weak in my language Chinese and English

i could get A's for my math and science

but C and D for my language

but all thanks to my mum who coach me day and night

that i manage to gets 3 A's and a B

then follow by my secondary sch years

i wasn't the brightest in my class by somehow i manage to hang in there

so came sec 2 i manage to scrape through and get in to a double science class

it consider quite good all was well in the beginning

until the end of year exams

well i was quite lazy so i insist that i do not want a tuition teacher

and my result say for themselves

i failed my English by 2 to 5 marks and a couple of subject

and in that year my principal decided that those who

fail their language have to retain

and i was one of them thank God i was given another chance

my teacher said the sch will be giving a retest in 1 month time

so in the mean time i need to study and revise and summit

what i have done back to sch

my mum was there to help me again she push me to study hard

and yes i got pass

and come my sec 4 year

things wasn't that well since i have lots of catching up to do

my mum got me a tuition teacher

result improve but wasn't that good

guess i wasn't hardworking enough

got only 4 passes out of the 8 subject i took

then came poly

the course that i enter was my 5th choice

wasn't that interested

but being lazy and can't be bothered to appeal to change course

i went on the first two sem was quite smooth sailing

cause some of the topic taught i learn it in sec sch before

like the maths, it was just a add on to A'math

things got harder in my second year

and i got lazier

my result drop

in the first sem of my second year

my result was so bad that i was ask to retake the whole sem

well it seem it is a wake up call for me

i work hard and dada yes i past

got to the next year but bad habit are hard to kick

the lazy came in again

took things for granted again

fail my exam again

and this time it was so bad that i was dismiss from sch

so ya now i am sch less